Of Angels and Demons: Lucifer's Monologue

written in 2000

Lucifer’s Monologue


The worst way of missing someone is to be sitting there, next to them, elbows almost touching, breathing the air they breath, observing the same things they observe – to be the only one that could ever be considered their equal – and yet be completely alone and know that they will never, ever, ever extend a hand out to you.


Go ahead – tell me you wouldn’t have done the same thing I did.


Go ahead – tell me that maybe, just maybe you wouldn’t get tired of knowing that everything, everything was going to work out His way.


Go ahead – tell me that it wouldn’t kill you to know that no matter what you did, no matter how hard you tried, no matter how much you cared, nothing was going to change and everything you could accomplish was meaningless because the one who made even you is always whispering in your ear.


I knew what He had planned for me from the beginning.  You ever think about it?  Your Master’s Son is called the “Prince of Peace” but you’re the commander of His armies.  Kind of ironic, isn’t it?


So I did the only thing I could do – lash out at the one I loved.




And I made a difference.  I made a change.  I took his perfect Heavenly kingdom, his beautiful Silver City, and introduced Chaos into it.  For myself and those around me, His Word was finally out of my ear.  For once – I wasn’t told what to do, or how to do it.  The excitement filled us all – we didn’t know what was going to happen.  We had made a change – we did more than we were supposed to do!!!  We were free thinking – we broke free from the limitations.  We had a choice.


A slave to the Heavens, or a ruler of Hell.  For me, it was a simple choice.



Go ahead – tell me you wouldn’t have done the same thing I did.


Then, maybe, just maybe, I’ll tell you that you already have.


Heh. Heh. Heh.